All you care about is your darling son. Lol.

You spend thousands of dollars on him for tuition, 也不见得他考得特别优秀. 随便你啦，你高兴就好 lor. Note: Jinjie did not have any tuition at all and he scored 260. And who was the one who called Jinjie a bad influence? Lol. More like your son's a bad influence on Jinjie.

You have high hopes for him all because the fengshui results show that he's going to have a beautiful future ahead of him. Sometimes I secretly wonder if you are just sticking to him because you believe he's going to strike it big in the future and you're going to live off him. (Sounds very evil, unlike something a mother would do but I can't help but think this way.)

I will be coming back on the 22nd and all you can think about is, that on that particular day, your son will be receiving his PSLE posting results.

As for how you treat me, I guess you have done adequately enough as a mother, however I just do not feel the emotional connection with you, please stop trying to force it out. Not gonna happen. And all because I refuse to go for a so-called moral/values class hosted by that cult you are in, I am, in your eyes, a rebellious teenager that is childish, juvenile, and completely incapable of thinking and making mature decisions.

I do not give a shit about your favouritism and particular liking towards your son. You refuse to admit it but the whole world can see it. And I don't think that you're blind to it, you are just adamant - completely unwilling to accept the inconvenient truth.

It is not like I am jealous about not being treated the way you treat him, and I don't feel inferior because you are lavishing more of your attention on him. "He's a problem kid, he needs someone to keep tabs on him all time lest he goes astray, he's clever but not putting his intelligience to full use..." I have heard all of that. I understand that you need to spend more time with him. So he will evolve into the genius you want him to be.

I am used to it because it's been so many years of favouritism. And please don't deny that you do not succumb to favouritism because 7 years back you'd told me while I was folding clothes with you that I was your favourite. Which I felt happy about, but guilty too because it was unfair to my siblings.

Aiya whatever la. You are my mother and you love me. I know that. You just love your son more lol. If not why would you call your son handsome when he has a major breakout? And my complexion is comparatively better but I'm being told by you that I'm ugly. Lol

Facial complexion is probably a very childish and superficial way to show that you are biased towards him. But whatever. Things go way deeper and further than that.




AND AND AND, I'm not angry or sad. Just felt like ranting.

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